Whatever this virus was it seems to be out of my system and I feel like I'm on the mend. Which I know is good but by the same token I'm a bit disappointed. But that's just my craziness talking :)
Barely eaten all day. Skipped breakfast and lunch, just had 2 cups of tea with skimmed milk (38 cals). Had some dinner because I was finally feeling a bit better and the hunger pains had turned up in droves. In fairness though I had fasted for 24 hours which is a miracle for me, that truly is a rarity and one I hope will soon turn into a regular occurrence. I'd had nothing to eat from 2.30pm yesterday and finally ate at 5.20pm today. Hurray for minor victories. Really hoping for a loss on the scales in the morning. All I had for dinner was a WeightWatcher's beef and vegetable hotpot kinda thing for 238 cals. Not too bad really. Pretty pleased with that.
Let's hope I can keep it up. No doubt I'll fuck things up tomorrow like I normally do. I need to learn how to discipline myself properly. That's one of the things I like about Buddhists (yes I'm still reading about them, not quite a convert yet but I don't think it will be far off, promoting inner calmness is something everyone should have and you don't worship a God), one of the things they attempt is to abstain from eating untimely meals (i.e snacking between meals and grazing throughout the day). Now that kinda disciplined thought pattern is something I would gladly grasp with both hands and never let it go.
Night angels,
AK xoxo
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